case of the mondays and dog days are over

I've got a serious case of the Mondays. I went to bed far too late last night with a full mind and less than tired eyes. I woke up abruptly. Ever have a morning when your alarm doesn't feel or sound like your alarm and you think to yourself "is it actually time to wake up?". I found it really hard to get motivated to get dressed. I was dawdling with my breakfast making, and I didn't even get a chance to make myself coffee. I forgot my headphones, and I just can't get into The Great Gatsby, so my bus ride consisted of me playing around on my phone. Why don't more people tweet between the hours of 8:00 am - 8:30 am? My commute will greatly appreciate it.

Last night Mallory stayed over til almost 10:30. I feel bad my walk with Kyle and Kayla didn't happen, but Mallory needed a shoulder/ears/arms.We ended up watching Buffy (the movie) Save the Last Dance and the Degrassi "School's Out" movie. We obviously doodled, ate salt and vinegar chips, cream soda and pull n' peel licorice. We also had a good cuddle sesh with the cats, and complained about how dumb boys are.

Kyle asked me if I wanted to go to the Canadians Championship game tonight, and obviously I do. I have that to look forward to, but I just can't shake my mood. Next weekend has a bunch of 'maybe' plans, but nothing solid yet. I'm almost tempted to turn off my computer and my phone and just stay in my bed and mope. Or better yet, wear my pajamas and literally watch all of my favourite movies the entire weekend. I don't really have anything to be upset about, I just think I'm pmsing so everything is hitting me the wrong way, and I'm over thinking everything (you know, even more than usual). It's been a while since I've had a random act of kindness head my way, and I think I'm just kind of feeling blah about that. Is it selfish to be upset that I constantly put people before myself and I hardly ever get that back? I feel crappy that a handful of my friends are going through breakups right now, and I'm being strong for them and giving them advice and support.

Just because I don't miss him, and I don't feel shitty about leaving, doesn't mean that I don't feel lonely. Last night the guy I was suppose to go on a date with this past Friday sent me a text suggesting Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs:2. I guess he's really trying knowing that I like cutesy things. I told him I hadn't seen the first one and that maybe we should just wait until better movies are out. Do I go on a date for the sake of going on a date? For the sake of getting attention from the opposite sex? That's kind of against everything I believe in. I just want someone I can cuddle and hold hands with and make out. Is that so much to ask? Diving into a long term relationship is the last thing I want right now. Sometimes I really hate being a girl.

I just want to listen to Florence and the Machine and call it a day.