overthinking about overthinking

I think one of my biggest flaws is that I over think about every little thing that is occurring in my life. Flash back to my last blog post where I mentioned I met someone that has inspired me to be creative…he’s now in my life, big time. He’s not a boyfriend, but he’s more than a friend. He has a lot going on, and I’m tentative to jump into anything serious after my last relationship. At times I’m quite content with our arrangement. We talk nearly every day and we see each other when possible (which doesn’t seem like nearly as often as I’d like).

Since I’m a serial over-thinker, I’ve been stressing myself out with over thinking how he feels about me, if he thinks about me when we’re not together, if he’s told his friends about me and then I realize what I’m doing and I tell myself to shut up. You know what? I do listen. When I find my mind wandering, I nip it quickly. The best thing about this man is he inspires me to be a more creative person. I use to be one of the most creative people I knew, and now, not so much. Maybe I’m scared to start creating again because I’m afraid of what I’ll make. I have all this pent up creative energy that is just itching to get out, but I don’t know if I remember how to apply it.

I’m happy to report I’m still keeping up with my good things jar! I also very recently (yesterday to be exactly exact) started the #100dayshappy project. Basically, you post a picture of something that is making you happy with that hashtag on your choice of social media platform (instagram, twitter, facebook, tumblr, etc.) and it encourages you to find the good in every day. This, plus my jar is really going to keep my chin up. Other than a few bad days here and there, and waking up at 3:30am worrying about where my life is going, I’d like to think I’m a positive person. In fact, on my two year work review, my boss and admin supervisor both said that I’m an incredibly positive person and they wish more employees were like me. My boss mentioned that my positivity shines through and affects the people surrounding me. I think that’s one of the best compliments I’ve had. I know my positivity is completely possible based on the fact I have been appreciating the little things. It works. Try it! Having a bad day? There is at LEAST one good thing that happened. It doesn’t even need to be anything huge, but something good happens every. single. day. Embrace it.